For the first time since I have started this blog, I can honestly say that there is no drama or anything resembling drama going on. Not only with me but with the entire Panel. I cannot believe it…..after all the chaos and drama since I started this blog, it is almost not normal, but I am certainly enjoying it. I attribute it to the fact that even drama needs a break/rest sometimes, we are all in good places/spaces right now and I have learned to not take on every potential lost cause or bit of OMG gossip as my own personal crusade. Life is what it is and sometimes…it can be pretty good. Granted knowing that Boobycake has passed is NOT a good thing, but I am going to try to focus on what her friendship gave me and what she left me with. So without further ado (before I start crying again), here is a rundown and an update on me and my crew.
Guardian Princess: I NEVER talk about her and with good reason. She never has any drama! I guess she doesn’t because she is so busy defusing mine. She is simply the sweetest, kindest and most unselfish person I know and she has been maintaining her current weight loss and striving to lose even more. I am both proud and envious.
Chef: Well, March Madness is over and he is almost back to being normal. Culinary school has started for another semester so that fills his time along with DIY home renovations on one of the properties he owns. There are no more random updates about him….instead, positive support and encouragement towards job searching and tips and advice on how best to conduct the research for business plans and small business loans for me and I am encouraging him to put himself back out there. Not necessarily for a relationship or even for something sexual, but sometimes a dinner with a member of the opposite sex is sorta nice. He agrees. Of course, he still drives me crazy at times (and I am a willing participant), but that is what we do together.
Artsy Craftsy: The woman who makes the ordinary extraordinary is back….and at least 35 pounds lighter! Oh, did I mention she has taken up running? Again, envious and proud. Work is still a pain in the ass but it does deliver a paycheck which allows her to go shopping for new clothes in different sizes. We are back to having the most random of conversations ranging from fashion, my “dates”, books to home improvements (hers, not mine), diet plans and the best snacks. Oh, how I miss her when she is gone and how happy I am to have her back.
New Mommy: She’s a mom and we love it. Not as much as she loves it, of course but we do. She keeps us updated on little K-Bugg all the time and the love and pride in her voice almost makes me want to see what all this parenting fuss is about. She is getting more into cooking (and cooking healthy) after spending months and months of making home-made baby food and has bought all kinds of cookbooks with funky and yummy sounding titles. She calls them food porn and promises to share all the good recipes with us.
Cuz: He’s back and not crazy and I have missed his humor, intelligence and insight on the most mundane of topics. We are still having late night gabfests and even spent the day out together…lunch at 5 Guys, movies, window shopping and dinner in Chinatown. Cuz is talking of relocating but he is not just rushing off willy-nilly….he wants to make a plan, job search and make sure it is really what he wants to do. He is growing up and I am so proud of him.
Quiet One: She has been on vacation for two weeks. She didn’t tell anyone (I am guessing she wanted a relaxing vacation) but anything to rejuvenate the spirit and cut some slack from the routine is good in my book.
Morning Person: She is so happy that we are being quiet and good, she does not know what to do. I have to admit, I overload her with so much information it gives me a headache but she always handles it in stride, even with all of her own stuff. Now that there are no updates or information to receive, she is enjoying the quiet and hoping it lasts. We all know it won’t (Artsy Craftsy keeps calling this the calm before the mother of all storms) but for now, Morning Person is enjoying the peace….to the point she is not even picking up her phone or returning phone calls. I am not even miffed…she deserves the break.
Girlfriend: Everything is good for my sweetie….work is going well, the move into her new place was smooth and she is having a blast putting it together. We have both decided no more recycling as far as men go and are waiting to start fresh. In the meantime, she is taking advantage of the warmer weather with all kinds of outdoor activities and I am thinking a possible trip out of town for Memorial Day.
Buddy: There has been no news from Buddy in a minute (they say no news is good news), but last we heard all was good. The new job is working out, he and Boo are still together and acting as if they have some sense and he was going to get started with yard work around the house. Ordinary things that provide simple pleasures. Sounds good to me.
UTA: My girl is in a great place….she is moving on away from the heartbreak because she wants to versus moving on because she has to. Work is better, she is being social and best of all, she is preparing for summer vacation! And she still finds time to send me encouraging, chatty emails and pictures of BTH license plates! I love her.
Policeman: The man is nerve-wracking but in a good way. He has given up other women and is working on his marriage. His job keeps him busy with training and extra hours but that doesn’t stop my friend from branching out with a part-time job that is turning out to be more lucrative than either of us thought it would be. I do not talk to him nearly enough and I am going to make myself more available for him.
Sister Someone/Brother Everything: It helps that I am no longer paying their drama any attention because legal proceedings are in their future. I am dead serious….of the three characters in that whatever it is….one will be in jail, the other a mental institution and someone will be in ICU at someone’s hospital But for now, they are all actors in a play and all are playing their roles beautifully.
Oscar: I honestly thought that things would be strained and awkward between us after our catfight but it isn’t. We both dusted ourselves off and have been back in love ever since. She is job searching and interviewing (I am doing the same thing and feel her pain and frustration) and just won the Best.Mom.Ever. award for throwing her son a fantastic 5th birthday party. Her birthday is right around the corner and unsure of her plans but I am sure alcohol and partying hard are in the mix.
Tiger: I offered him the Fire Marshal position here on the Panel and he refused it. Work has slowed down some so he is enjoying regular working hours again. Warm weather is here so he is getting out and playing tennis pretty much every weekend, watching baseball and doing yard work. He checks in with me pretty much every day to make sure I am maintaining some type of routine so I do not feed too much into the delusion that I truly am a lady of leisure. Also, he listens to me rant and vent about the mundane and makes soothing “there, there” noises.
Mini-Me: This chick is just chilling….that’s it. She sleeps in, she is domestic and she goes out at least 4 days out of the week so she does not get claustrophobia. Since the rest of us are drama-free for the moment, she has backburnered her man to make sure she doesn’t have any either.
Busy Bee: She is still busy but not as much…she wants to add curb appeal to her house and thinks gardening may be a way for her to slow down some. Work is not as hectic and home life has settled into a routine of sorts…she misses the drama and updates a little but agrees that life is about moving forward, not looking back.
Bell Pepper: She has been in and out, off and on. All I can say is she is trying to hold it together as best she can and does reach out for help, advice and distractions.
Me: I have been doing a little of this, a little of that. I had another job interview that was actually promising; I had two great dates that are distant memories at this point (one bought me chocolates!); I worked a three day temp assignment and I burned mashed potatoes that I cooked for dinner one evening. I had to introduce chocolate back into my diet…the withdrawals were simply too bad. But not a lot and not every day. I am replacing sodas and juices with water and Crystal Light and am making veggies a daily thing. I am planning a “me” day which will include a mani/pedi and probably a movie…leaning towards The Most Exotic Marigold Hotel. And that’s it…I have had a couple of WTF responses to the ads but that is another post.
So my Panel and I are living normal lives for now. It is so different I almost wish it were tangible. I would look at it, touch it and maybe even take pictures so I can remember that this is what life is supposed to be. Not perfect but not complete chaos either. Life should be manageable and the positives in it should shine through no matter what crap is flung…and for right now, this is my life and I’m grateful for that.
As always, thanks for stopping past and reading and as usual…enjoy your day!